fanatic fandom

My other blog is a BMW. But this is a bandanna-pink Volkswagen Beetle - for flirty frivolous fun and fanatic fandom. This is where i get to play the bimbonic-geek and rave, enthuse, bitch and rant about anything and everything under the sun. Feel free to chip in!

Sunday, December 31, 2006

the stuff of nightmares

i've been watching nature documentaries all my life, but i don't think i've ever really seen one, until just a moment before. There's a programme about leopards on National Geographic right now which is making me feel real fear with its footage of leopards killing their prey, bringing up their young, mating. It's the deep-throated guttural snarls that did it - called out a primal, visceral terror.

Maybe i won't be going on safari so soon after all.
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Saturday, December 30, 2006

required reading

Put 2 Englishers together online after a 10-year friendship and this is what you get:


K101

Novels

Norwegian Wood, or another novel by Murakami
Invisible Cities (Calvino)
The Remains of the Day (Ishiguro)
Lolita (Nabokov)
Lord of the Rings (Tolkein)
The New York Trilogy (Auster)
Disgrace (Coetzee)


Plays

King Lear (Bill S)
Hamlet (Bill S)
Romeo and Juliet (Bill S)
The Invention of Love (Stoppard)
Rosencrantz and Guildernstern Are Dead (Stoppard)


Poetry

The Waste Land (TS Eliot)
‘No worst, there is none…’ (Hopkins)
Musee des Beaux Arts (Auden)


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R101

Fiction

Barabbas (Par Lagerkvist)
Disgrace (Coetzee)
Invisible Cities (Calvino)


Plays

King Lear (Bill S)
Hamlet (Bill S)
The Invention of Love (Stoppard)


Poetry

The Waste Land (TS Eliot)
After great pain, a formal feeling comes… (Emily Dickinson)
Snow (MacNeice)
Cyclamen
‘No worst, there is none…’ (Hopkins)
Pied Beauty (Hopkins)
‘September has come, and I wake…’ (MacNeice)
The Confirmation (Edwin Muir)


Others

The Bible


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i must confess to having problems thinking of poems for K101, even though i know they should be there, because i couldn't get access to the relevant blog entries. There's a lot of stuff from both lists that date back to the Uni days - in my case, because they've never ceased to matter, and in K's case, well, honestly the K i know best is the K from way back when.

Let's see how many i got right...
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Tuesday, December 26, 2006

some seasonal cheer

Rain

Rain, midnight rain, nothing but the wild rain
On this bleak hut, and solitude, and me
Remembering again that I shall die
And neither hear the rain nor give it thanks
For washing me cleaner than I have been
Since I was born into this solitude.
Blessed are the dead that the rain rains upon:
But here I pray that none whom once I loved
Is dying tonight or lying still awake
Solitary, listening to the rain,
Either in pain or thus in sympathy
Helpless among the living and the dead,
Like a cold water among broken reeds,
Myriads of broken reeds all still and stiff,
Like me who have no love which this wild rain
Has not dissolved except the love of death,
If love it be for what is perfect and
Cannot, the tempest tells me, disappoint.


(Edward Thomas)
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for the record

i rarely make political statements on this blog. But i'd like to say for the record that i think the recent attempts to deny the Holocaust, or to make it seem less than it was, were criminal and immoral. Whatever is going on in the Middle East now, and has been going on since modern-day Israel was established, does not in any way erase the horrors of World War II. And it must never be allowed to do so.

Ok. Rant over. Time for some poetry now.


Rendevous

(for Nathan Altermann)

Altermann, sipping wine, reads with a look
Of infinite patience and slight suffering.
When I approach him, he puts down his book,

Waves to the chair beside him like a king,
Then claps his hands, and an awed waiter fetches
Bread, kosher sausage, cake, a chicken's wing,

More wine, some English cigarettes, and matches.
"Eat, eat," Altermann says, "this is good food."
Through the awning over us the sunlight catches

His aquiline sad head, till it seems hewed
From tombstone marble. I accept some bread.
I've lunched already, but would not seem rude.

When I refuse more, he feeds me instead,
Heaping my plate, clapping for wine, his eyes
- Expressionless inside the marble head -

Appearing not to notice how the flies
Form a black, sticky icing on the cake.
Thinking of my health now, I visualise

The Aryan snow floating, flake upon flake,
Over the ghetto wall where only fleas
Fed well, and they and hunger kept awake

Under sharp stars, those waiting for release.
Birds had their nests, but Jews nowhere to hide
When visited by vans and black police.

The shekinah rose where a people died,
A pillar of flame by night, of smoke by day.
From Europe then the starved and terrified

Flew. Now their mourner sits in this cafe,
Telling me how to scan a Hebrew line.
Though my attention has moved far away

His features stay marble and aquiline.
But the eternal gesture of his race
Flowing through the hands that offer bread and wine

Reveals the deep love sealed in the still face.


(Dom Moraes)
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Monday, December 25, 2006

looking for christmas, again

Every Christmas i comb through poetry anthologies, search the internet, the works - looking for a Christmas poem that meets my stringent editorial standards (haha!). Actually, i don't think it's so much a good poem that i'm looking for, though that is of course the bottom-line as far as Christmas selections are concerned. A colleague told me once that i was probably the kind of art-buyer who would never even imagine buying any artwork, and then, one day, suddenly come across a piece that i just had to have. i suppose that applies to poetry too. i'm looking for the X-factor - that undefinable something that gives that 'Ahhh...' feeling that tells me 'This is home.'

And inevitably, what i find just never cuts it.

The best Christmas poem, as i said in a similar post this time last year, is TS Eliot's Journey of the Magi - but that's already been put up elsewhere on this blog.

Anyways, so this year i've decided to settle for something that's caught my eye before. No 'Ahhh...' here, but this will do for the moment while i look for something better for next year.


He

He runs before the wise men: he
Is moving on the hills like snow.
No gifts, no tears, no company
He brings, but wind-rise and water-flow.

In meadows of descended day
His motion leans, dividing air:
He takes the unforgiving way
Beneath the apostolic star.

She who has known him calls him stranger.
Parting the night's long hair, he steals
Within the heart, that humble manger
Where the white, astonished spirit kneels.

His vertical inflicting pride,
Whose shadow cuts the nib of space,
Bends to this virtue fructified.
But though he kiss the little face

Like rapture breaking on the mind,
The necessary fierce details
Implacably he has designed.
Redemption hangs upon the nails.


(Stanley Kunitz)
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Sunday, December 24, 2006

creepy crawlies



This is both beautiful and disturbing.
i wonder if these mechanical bugs can actually move, or if the watch parts, gears and electronic components are merely ornamental. How weird it would be to see a beetle scurrying across a tabletop, only to pick it up and discover that it's a dead beetle driven by cogs and gears.
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Thursday, December 21, 2006

an equal music

Some books are published, i'm almost convinced, to make the rest of us feel better about our writing abilities.

An Equal Music, by Vikram Seth, quite unfortunately falls into this category. i'd picked up this novel before, years before, and at that time i didn't manage to get past the first few chapters. This time, i'm almost through to the end of the book, but more because there are things i want to know, things that, in some way, are almost unrelated to the book itself as a novel.

Some books just work. From the word 'Go', they are tightly constructed, each word an inevitability. These are the books i love. This book, though, meanders in a forest of wasted words. It's loose, and for no apparent reason other than... a lack of discipline? Hurried rush-work? i really don't know.

i get the feeling, reading this, that Seth was more interested in the facts of the musical world - how a quartet operates, how musicians see their craft, the kinds of lives musicians live - than in constructing a novel with characters that live and breathe. Everything seems so stilted, as if written for the sole purpose of exploring the music. In that case, why not just write an essay? A non-fictional exposition. Why bother creating a fictional world if the only purpose seems to be to populate it with cardboard characters who think cardboard thoughts in equally cardboard language?

Harsh criticism, i know. What i am getting out of this, though, is an introduction to music i've never listened to before - Beethoven's piano trios, Schubert's quartets, Bach's Art of Fugue. i think i'll go look for the Bach - the Cello Suites have made me see the old man's work in a different light. In a world awash with Christmassy melodiousness, Bach's austerity has a strangely compelling appeal.

Vikram Seth would be glad to know that some good has come out of his novel. And, perhaps, given the attention he has lavished on the music, this is all he really wanted when he wrote it anyway.

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[Edit]

Ah. So i was right about at least one thing.


From the Author's Note at the end of the novel:

Music to me is dearer than even speech. When I realised that I would be writing about it I was gripped with anxiety. Only slowly did I reconcile myself to the thought of it.

Friends and strangers have helped me in this work: string players, often those in quartets themselves or who, because of their involvement with early music, have had to deal with the problems of variant tuning; pianists, other musicians, both players and composers; makers, repairers and sellers of instruments; those who aid or attempt to aid the creation or dissemination of music - teachers, critics, musicians' agents and managers, executives of record companies, managers of halls and festivals....

(Vikram Seth)
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Thursday, December 07, 2006

perchance to dream

With more thanks to K. i love the Icarus myth for what it says about human aspiration and human failure.


This Heavy Craft

The wax has melted
but the dream of flight
persists.
I, Icarus, though grounded
in my flesh
have one bright section in me
where a bird
night after starry night
while I'm asleep
unfolds its phantom wings

and practices.


(P.K. Page)
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Monday, December 04, 2006

the persistence of trees

Not so much for the way it is said (which, frankly, strikes me as a bit of a mouthful), but for what is said.


Optimism

More and more I have come to admire resilience.
Not the simple resistance of a pillow, whose foam
returns over and over to the same shape, but the sinuous
tenacity of a tree: finding the light newly blocked on one side,
it turns in another. A blind intelligence, true.
But out of such persistence arose turtles, rivers,
mitochondria, figs - all this resinous, unretractable earth.

(Jane Hirshfield)
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Saturday, December 02, 2006

the space between the notes

Bach's Cello Suites are beautiful. They are exactly the music i've been searching for all these months. What i love most is the way they allow the silence behind and between the music to be heard. A silence that sings in counterpoint to the rich mellow voice of the cello.

Let me go swoon some more now.
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Friday, December 01, 2006

deferred gratification

Good things come to those who wait. So i've waited months before finally getting myself a recording of Bach's Cello Suites, and i'm now waiting till i can finally retire to the comfort of my room and listen to the sinuous, sensuous singing of a single cello line (look Ma, i can alliterate!!), winding its way round the cool December night.

i can't wait.

And yes. December has come, and i wake, and i think, What a year it has already been. And there's still one more month to go, with hope springing eternal / infernal in the human breast.
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