fanatic fandom

My other blog is a BMW. But this is a bandanna-pink Volkswagen Beetle - for flirty frivolous fun and fanatic fandom. This is where i get to play the bimbonic-geek and rave, enthuse, bitch and rant about anything and everything under the sun. Feel free to chip in!

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

michael bubble

Okok, i know it is 'Buble'. Just let me be silly and childish for a bit, can?

Michael Buble's 'Home' is the most yearningly homesick song i've heard in a long long time. And i swear, his voice sounds better in live recordings than in studio recordings - more raw, more real. The studio versions of his songs always make him sound just way too smooth - like his voice has been manufactured of oil and honey.

Wanna go home. Wherever that is. (Where the heart is. Where is the heart?)
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Monday, December 26, 2005

in memoriam

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It's a year to the day. i remember first hearing about the tsunami from a student who told me that his mother had sms'd him about a huge tidal wave that had hit Phuket. i thought it was probably a hoax.

The next i heard of it was at a friend's Christmas party much later in the evening. Only this time it was on the news, and we knew it was no hoax, but too terribly real.

Today the world remembers.


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The wish, that of the living whole
No life may fail beyond the grave,
Derives it not from what we have
The likest God within the soul?

Are God and Nature then at strife,
That Nature lends such evil dreams?
So careful of the type she seems,
So careless of the single life;

That I, considering everywhere
Her secret meaning in her deeds,
And finding that of fifty seeds
She often brings but one to bear,

I falter where I firmly trod,
And falling with my weight of cares
Upon the great world's altar-stairs
That slope thro' darkness up to God,

I stretch lame hands of faith, and grope,
And gather dust and chaff, and call
To what I feel is Lord of all,
And faintly trust the larger hope.


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'So careful of the type?' but no.
From scarpèd cliff and quarried stone
She cries, 'A thousand types are gone:
I care for nothing, all shall go.

Thou makest thine appeal to me:
I bring to life, I bring to death:
The spirit does but mean the breath:
I know no more.' And he, shall he,

Man, her last work, who seem'd so fair,
Such splendid purpose in his eyes,
Who roll'd the psalm to wintry skies,
Who built him fanes of fruitless prayer,

Who trusted God was love indeed
And love Creation's final law—
Tho' Nature, red in tooth and claw
With ravine, shriek'd against his creed—

Who loved, who suffer'd countless ills,
Who battled for the True, the Just,
Be blown about the desert dust,
Or seal'd within the iron hills?

No more? A monster then, a dream,
A discord. Dragons of the prime,
That tare each other in their slime,
Were mellow music match'd with him.

O life as futile, then, as frail!
O for thy voice to soothe and bless!
What hope of answer, or redress?
Behind the veil, behind the veil.


(from 'In Memoriam: AHH' by Lord Alfred Tennyson)
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Sunday, December 25, 2005

looking for Christmas


So i've been searching for a Christmas poem - unfortunately, Eliot's 'Journey of the Magi' has already made an appearance in an earlier post - and i simply cannot think of another one that fits the bill. If any of you would like to make a poem or song request for Christmas, go ahead and i'll post it for you.

Well, in place of words, i leave you a picture that i hope captures the meaning of Christmas for you. (With thanks to K for first sharing this with me.)

Have a joyous Christmas!
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Thursday, December 22, 2005

joni mitchell again

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Both Sides Now

Rows and flows of angel's hair
And icecream castles in the air
And feathered canyons everywhere
I've looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way.

I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, but still somehow
It's cloud illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all.

Moon and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way.
But now it's just another show
You leave them laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away.

I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, but still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all.

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well something's lost, but something's gained
In living every day.

I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose, but still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all.


Who said pop songs cannot also be poetry?

If i had not found this commentary on the Wondering Minstrels site i would have written one myself:

'Both Sides Now' has everything -- a superbly executed rhyme pattern (don't miss the internal rhymes in the first, fourth and seventh stanzas that pick up the tempo of the song so effectively), a repeating structure that brings out the deeper allegories, some incredibly vivid phrases (what better description of a cloud bank than"feathered canyons everywhere"), a gorgeous refrain (to really know how gorgeous, listen to the song and feel the breath catch in your throat as the pause before "at all" stretches forever and ever) and an emotional range that goes from the almost joking (Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels) to the achingly lonesome ("if you care, don't let them know").

But most of all, this is a song that even read aloud has a voice all its own. It's the voice of a generation that grew up too quickly, the voice of cynicism, the voice of tiredness. But it is also the voice of hope - of the spirit's struggle to reclaim lost wonder, of an acceptance of one's own limitations that is both humility and joy. It is at once the voice of our defeat and the voice of our renewal.

- Assem Kaul
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another non-reflective post

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River

It's coming on Christmas
They're cutting down trees
They're putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
But it don't snow here
It stays pretty green
I'm going to make a lot of money
Then I'm going to quit this crazy scene
I wish I had a river
I could skate away on

I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I made my baby cry

He tried hard to help me
You know, he put me at ease
And he loved me so naughty
Made me weak in the knees
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I'm so hard to handle
I'm selfish and I'm sad
Now I've gone and lost the best baby
That I ever had
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on

I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly
Oh I wish I had a river
I made my baby say goodbye

It's coming on Christmas
They're cutting down trees
They're putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace
I wish I had a river
I could skate away on


(Joni Mitchell)


i first came across this song at the Swingle Singers' pre-Christmas concert ('Unwrapped') at the Esplanade last year. It was beautiful - so beautiful i went hunting for the original the very next day. And of course Joni Mitchell did not disappoint.

i like the juxtaposition of (commercialised) Christmas cheer, homesickness and personal despair. And that image of skating away on a river? So evocative, so Canadian.

Joni Mitchell is god with a small g.
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Friday, December 16, 2005

this is freakin' hilarious!!

*doubled over in laughter, wipes tears from eyes*

And brilliant, too.

Parodies of literary works based on anagrams of writers' names:

For a taste of what you're in for:


HALT, DYNAMOS
DYLAN THOMAS

Do not work harder than required to work,
Young men should sit around and drink all day;
Laze, laze, ignore the pressure not to shirk.

Though poor men may apply to be a clerk,
Because their jobs are not exciting they
Do not work harder than required to work.

Rich men, who sell and buy, eat at Le Cirque,
And take their “business trips” to Saint-Tropez,
Laze, laze, ignore the pressure not to shirk.

Old men around retirement age who lurk
At desks and hope no tasks will come their way
Do not work harder than required to work.

Smart men, in school, who learn with blinding smirk
That coasting through a class still earns an A,
Laze, laze, ignore the pressure not to shirk.

Don’t visit every world like Captain Kirk;
Picard knows that the bridge is where to stay.
Do not work harder than required to work.
Laze, laze, ignore the pressure not to shirk.


No prizes for guessing which famous poem this parodies.

And another:


KIN RIP PHALLI
PHILIP LARKIN

They trim your dick, your mum and dad.
They may not need to, but they do.
They take the foreskin that you had
And leave you smoother than bamboo.

But Dad was severed in his turn
By docs in old-style masks and gowns,
Who wore a look of unconcern
While snipping little penile crowns.

Man hands on suffering to man.
It stains indelibly as ink.
They cut you early as they can,
Then wonder why you need a shrink.


Oh dear! :)
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Thursday, December 15, 2005

between the snow and the huge roses


Snow

The room was suddenly rich and the great bay-window was
Spawning snow and pink roses against it
Soundlessly collateral and incompatible:
World is suddener than we fancy it.

World is crazier and more of it than we think,
Incorrigibly plural. I peel and portion
A tangerine and spit the pips and feel
The drunkenness of things being various.

And the fire flames with a bubbling sound for world
Is more spiteful and gay than one supposes -
On the tongue on the eyes on the ears in the palms of one's hands -
There is more than glass between the snow and the huge roses.


(Louis Macneice)


This is the second Macneice poem on this site. A friend has also pointed out that it's also very similar to 'Cyclamen', which i posted some time back in November.

This is an old favourite of mine, introduced to me by a dear old friend, back before we were dear old friends. I've known this poem for more than ten years now, and it is still as fresh now as it was when i first heard its lush sensuous cadences.

Which is, i suppose, the mark of a great poem.
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Tuesday, December 13, 2005

dappled things

Pied Beauty

Glory be to God for dappled things,
For skies of couple-color as a brinded cow,
For rose-moles all in stipple upon trout that swim;
Fresh-firecoal chestnut-falls, finches' wings;
Landscape plotted and pieced, fold, fallow and plough,
And all trades, their gear and tackle and trim.

All things counter, original, spare, strange,
Whatever is fickle, freckled (who knows how?)
With swift, slow; sweet, sour; adazzle, dim.
He fathers-forth whose beauty is past change;
Praise him.


(G.M. Hopkins)


Ahhh Hopkins. i think Christianity could definitely do with more writers like Hopkins - people who combine a poet's sensibility with a faith tested in fire.

What i like about this poem is the way it celebrates 'all things counter, original, spare, strange'. Too often, Christianity is seen as, or worse still, is made to be, the religion of the status quo, and God is reduced to some bearded WASP (white anglo-saxon protestant) male sitting atop a cloud and brandishing a thunderbolt, ready to strike anything that doesn't conform to whatever society currently sees as acceptable behaviour. It's a fine line, of course, between what is socially and morally acceptable, but the trouble with establishment Christianity is that it often fails to even think about that line, or to acknowledge its existence.

But if Christians continue to pretend that the line isn't there, then we should not complain about the dearth of good Christian artists (in the widest sense of the word: writers, musicians, dramatists, dancers), philosophers, scientists - in essence, anyone whose business it is to create new things - because these are precisely the people who are most likely to question the status quo and upset Society.

Of course, there is also the fact that Christianity is at heart a most radical religion, founded on the most radical of stories. God, conceived out of wedlock, born in a manger, raised, first as a refugee, then as a carpenter's boy, hanging out with tax-collectors, prostitutes, lepers (the modern equivalent would be AIDs patients, i think), breaking the letter of the Law to uphold its spirit, arrested and executed as a rabble-raiser and political insurgent. Honestly, i think that most of us, myself included, would cast our lot with the Sanhedrin and the Pharisees if Christ were in our midst today. Nasty, uncomfortable thought.

But perhaps (with reference to the previous post) this is one of the things that poetry should make happen: force us to face the uncomfortable, to be, for a moment at least, honest with ourselves, and more essentially, with God.
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Sunday, December 04, 2005

poetry makes nothing happen

For poetry makes nothing happen: it survives
In the valley of its making where executives
Would never want to tamper, flows on south
From ranches of isolation and the busy griefs,
Raw towns that we believe and die in; it survives,
A way of happening, a mouth.


(from 'In Memory of WB Yeats', by WH Auden)


Is this true? And if it is, does that mean that poetry, and by extension, literature, is useless?

In my QLRS bio, i wrote that i have 'an unreasonable conviction that literature matters'. That was a few years ago, when the certainty that it matters - somehow, in some secret, inexplicable, unreasonable way - was still there. i think i've lost that certainty over the years. It's difficult to see how poetry has any kind of place in the public world of busy executives, politics, earthquakes, business, finance, politics, war, crime, justice, busy executives, hurricanes, educational programmes, politics, tsunamis... With so much that needs doing, that needs real, hands-on action, it's hard to see how literature can contribute in any way except as a 'mouth' (and a rather ineffectual one at that), as something that merely 'happens' and 'survives', of no relevance to anyone except the few who continue to read and write it.

For quite some time now, i've reconciled myself to what seems the rather absurd situation of loving something that i know ultimately does not matter, of being good at something that is, in the larger scheme of things, useless. It's become an almost existential thing, this: this conviction that what i do really matters very little to anyone besides myself, but that somehow in doing what i love i'm being and becoming the person i was made to be, and that the fact that it matters hardly at all to anyone else was not really an issue at all.

Lately, i've started voicing these thoughts out loud, to friends and colleagues. And i've been - comforted? gratified? - by the earnestness of the responses i've received, from people from all academic disciplines and professions. There is something terribly... touching, if i may use that word, about non-Lit-people explaining why they think literature matters. No matter that the arguments basically revisit old ground that i've gone over before. It helps to hear it from others who do not have a vested interest in the matter.

i won't list all the pro-Lit arguments here, because i'd like to know what you, Gentle Reader, think of this. Do drop a note in the comments if you have anything at all to say about this question, whether it be an answer, or perhaps even more questions.


And in the meantime, here is what award-winning Brit author Jeanette Winterson thinks:


"I go to poetry the way some people grab an espresso; for an energy shot, a hit of warmth, and to clear my head.

I never go out without a poem – usually in my pocket, always in my head, and I try and learn some poetry every week. This is as good as a crossword puzzle for mental agility, and in times of stress it is better to be thinking, ‘Though much is taken, much abides,’ than ‘Sneeeze-catcher, (12)’, although I think the Sneeze Catcher might figure in my next book for kids.

We are in a good time for poetry. Strangely, the soundbite and snapshot culture has worked in poetry’s favour. People like something short and vivid. Poetry readings are a big success story, partly because poets tend to be much better performers than novelists, but also because listening to a series of shorter poems read out loud, allows the mind to concentrate, while refreshing it through the change of theme and tone and rhythm.

Above all, the mind is not fixed on following the plot, which is a left-brain activity. A poem activates the right-brain, and just allowing the brain to swop hands, as it were, for a time, provides relief.

Almost everything we do is left-brain work. Poetry should be subsidised by the NHS on the grounds that it is one of the few things in our mad world that offers a counter balance. One-sided people need help – poetry, like music, is the help we need.

On my website I feature a Poem of the Month - whatever it is I fancy, and this is the most visited and re-visited spot. I had an email from an oncologist last week, who tells me that while he is sitting late night in the hospital waiting for test results, he often looks at the poems on my site, and they seem like friends to him, in the long low hours.

The comfort of poetry is very real, but poetry is not a painkiller; it is a cure. Where there is no cure, poetry helps us to live with the problem. Poems don’t hide things, they reveal things about ourselves, they ‘put into words things difficult to think’, (Dante), and this difficult thinking won’t mask the trouble for a while, like an aspirin for a headache, but it will work to bring out the grief, the pain, the confusion, the mixed feelings, the anger, the impotence. We talk about being ‘lost for words’, about ‘having nothing to say’, but the poem finds the words, and has something to say, which is why poetry is worth our time.

Making time for poetry is making time for a different rhythm and a different understanding. Now that we are obsessed with factoids, docu-drama, reality TV, confessionals, live footage, 24 hour rolling news, we are forgetting that truth often lies elsewhere too – in what we can imagine, in what we can invent.

The wonderful Irish poet Eavan Boland has just issued her New Collected Poems, and there is a striking reminder of what poetry is and does in First Year, (2001)…I am writing this / not to recall our lives / but to imagine them.

Poetry always bears witness, but it is witness of a different kind to the front page of The Times. Only by imagining our lives can we fully understand them, or re-make them. Recording them is not enough.

This is not to say that we have no need of history, or politics, or daily news – of course we do, and poetry that is made separate from life is not poetry at all. But the poet speaks differently to the historian or the politician or the journalist. The poem itself has other work to do. In a world drowning in useless information, poetry returns us to what is meaningful. The poem acts a pocket of air in an upturned boat.

To the bean counters and economic gurus, a poem looks like the most useless thing on earth. It is not a money machine, you can’t sell it to Hollywood or use it for product placement. You can’t say long it will take to make, or how long it will last, (how maddening in an economy that depends on throwaways, that a poem can last forever). The poem, by its very nature, questions the dominant values of our world, and as William Carlos Williams put it, ‘it is hard to get the news from poems / but men die miserably every day / for lack of what is found there.’ "


(from http://www.jeanettewinterson.com/index.asp)
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no worst, there is none

No worries, there are none. This is definitely not a reflection of my mood right now. i just thought that i'd be posting this at some point anyways, and far better to do it when i am not 'pitched past pitch of grief' than when i am.

Read this out loud. Like all other Hopkins poems, the sound effects are simply amazing.

Also, fellow Lit-geeks, am i just imagining things, or does this have distinctly Lear-ian echoes? It's not so much the language as the imagery and the ideas. Please tell me i am not crazy.
('Let me not be mad, sweet heaven...')


NO worst, there is none. Pitched past pitch of grief,
More pangs will, schooled at forepangs, wilder wring.
Comforter, where, where is your comforting?
Mary, mother of us, where is your relief?
My cries heave, herds-long; huddle in a main, a chief
Woe, world-sorrow; on an age-old anvil wince and sing—
Then lull, then leave off. Fury had shrieked ‘No ling-
ering! Let me be fell: force I must be brief’.

O the mind, mind has mountains; cliffs of fall
Frightful, sheer, no-man-fathomed. Hold them cheap
May who ne’er hung there. Nor does long our small
Durance deal with that steep or deep. Here! creep,
Wretch, under a comfort serves in a whirlwind: all
Life death does end and each day dies with sleep.


(G.M Hopkins)
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