the horror, the horror!

i am reminded of this quotation from Simone Weil that i came across several years ago, when i first started suspecting that perhaps writing was my vocation. i found it horrifying back then; i still find it horrifying now. And i cannot wrap my mind around how Weil could have seen 'beauty' in such a life. Like most modern humans (to use the term used by that student i just quoted a few posts ago...), i do not like the idea of not having a choice.
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'The carrying out of a vocation differed from the actions dictated by reason or inclination. ... The most beautiful life possible has always seemed to me to be one where everything is determined, either by the pressure of circumstances or by impulses such as I have just mentioned, and where there is never any room for choice.'
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(Simone Weil)
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